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| Sunday, May 4th, 2008 | | 11:46 pm |
I'm scared.
I had been feeling awful for a couple of weeks. Increased tiredness. headaches. I had just been wondering if I had been getting sick. But since it hadn't gone away, I decided to check my blood pressure.
I did it at walmart, and it was definitely not a resting rate. That's two things that make the test a little suspect, but it was the best I could do on a weekend that I had to work. my high number was a whopping 196. my low number was a 96. So, my blood pressure is definitely up.
I am already being medicated, but it looks like I'll have to have it adjusted. when I went on medication the first time, my done by a doctor blood pressure at resting was 150 over 120, and they visibly freaked. I've been doing better since, but I don't know what to make of my latest numbers. my high number would be the highest it's ever been, but my low number isn't. So maybe there's hope for me with a new diet and new meds.
But there's another issue at play here, related and making it worse. I've been... angrier, lately. for the last year. Anger has been building. And I'm not used to being angry. I come from an angry household. infact, my family name is sort of infamous for hot headed tempers where I come from, going back generations. We're also know for heart trouble. Great grandfather? died in his 40s from a stroke. Grandfather? 80s from a stroke. Father? still alive thank god, but suffered 2 (sort of 2 1/2) heart attacks. And the old family temper is rising. I was never known as an angry child. I saw how my father and brother got, and I said "I don't want to be like that." But for the last year those old barriers have been failing me. I suppose some old bitterness has been hardening into anger. And I don't want to feel that way.
But, ultimately you gotta believe things can get better. | | Wednesday, April 30th, 2008 | | 12:19 am |
The abyss is staring back into me again.
Will sleep ever come? | | Monday, April 28th, 2008 | | 12:13 am |
Last blog of the night I swear.
Walmart, you're enjoying this, aren't you?
It's after midnight and I can't sleep.
I've always been prone to sleep trouble. Never full on insomnia, but those nights every so often when I can't get to sleep until real late/early and have fitful and unproductive sleep. For no apparent reason. And this happens to me at least once every one or two months.
So, Walmart, you just had to give me all 2-11 shifts last week to train my body to sleep later. then, after one day off, I have to go back on at an earlier shift. And as it's shaping up, without the maximal amount of sleep.
Oh, I'll cut you a little slack, walmart. I watch I am Legend today on Pay per view and it's an excellent movie that's left me a bit unsettled. And I'll admit my shift tomorrow isn't that early, at 11-8. I know you've screwed me way worse in the past. (Such as those times you've had me work to a 11 one night then have me come back in at 7 the next morning. On such times I was tempted not to go home at all, but merely set up camp in the break room. I didn't, ofcourse, becasue that would have been insubordinate.) And I'll admit that the next day tuesday I have off again, which helps, even if I have to spend most of it on another commitment.
So what I'm saying Walmart, is that I'm facing a slightly annoying and uncomfortable situation and I feel it should be part of my benefits package that I should blame you for it. Have a good night. | | 12:00 am |
It's stimulus package week! For those of us who chose to get there refunds as direct deposits. Like I did. And for those of us who have social security #s such that the last two digits are low. Such as mine. So, what should I use it on to fluff the nation's limp economy? Bamboo boogie boots? Cigars? 100 cups of coffee? a nice stem cell rejuvenation package? What other kind of rich guy stuff can I do? For now, I'll just boot up "300 big boys." Seeing as how I already own that DVD set, it's my patriotic duty to trash it and buy a new copy to celebrate the occasion. That's how RICH people do it. ;) Current Mood:  amused | | Thursday, March 27th, 2008 | | 3:19 pm |
Sad and frustrated. warning, mopey emo post ahead. ( Read more... ) | | Friday, February 29th, 2008 | | 12:54 am |
Superman: Doomsday review (Heavy Spoilers) (This review will strictly involve the movie. I don't actually own the DVD. Believe it or not, this sucker was on Pay per view for a while, and I bought it that way. But, waste not want not, I recorded on my Set top DVD recorder to DVD+R, So, all in all, my DVD copy of Doomsday cost me about $5. Cleverly thrifty, just ghetto? You decide.) ( Read more... ) | | Wednesday, January 30th, 2008 | | 11:46 pm |
My interest in the end of the world. For warning: this is one of those mopey and morbid posts. Feel free to move along. ( Read more... ) | | Monday, January 7th, 2008 | | 11:16 pm |
The Batman Season 4 review (SPOILERS) Yep, Spoilers. ( Read more... )Hopefully, coming soon-ish a review of Bender's Big Score with a large geeky discussion on time travel. | | Tuesday, January 1st, 2008 | | 10:37 pm |
Final thought for 2007.
It's hideous. I'm 23 1/2 half, and I've hit that point in my life where I've started having regrets. Wishing I could turn back the clock and handle things differently.
Still though, that gave way to another thought: No, you can't go back to the past and do it again. stop pining for it. Are you making the most of your current time? When you look back at this moment in your life, will you be able to say you used it how you liked to?
It's trite. It's a cliche. but sometimes, it takes a unique moment in your life to appreciate it. It's helped me do something I've been meaning to do for a long time. To take a goal in my life, and make it go from being a "one day" to a "today." So, that's good. | | Tuesday, November 27th, 2007 | | 3:41 pm |
Christmas Carol Write up. ( Read more... )Coming Soon: A review of The Batman Season 4 and a spoiler-laden review of Bender's Big Score. | | Saturday, November 17th, 2007 | | 12:56 am |
| | 12:25 am |
Pebbles and Bam-Bam coming to DVD!!!
So reports Toon Zone! They're still good for something!!!
Mmmkay. So. Back in the day when Cartoon Network and Boomerang were still awesome and I watched them rabidly, (about 2000-2004. Since JLU ended, I don't even tune into CN anymore.) one of my favorite things to do was to watch CN and Boomerang, (particularly Boomerang) for old Hanna Barbera shows. The quality, famous shows were always a treat, like Flintstones and Jetsons. But the REAL fun was finding semi-famous, semi-obscure, and obscure old shows and watching them. These could be a real riot. I loved them.
And one of my most favorites was the Pebbles and Bam-Bam show, a semi-obscure Flintstones spinoff from the mid seventies. Though Pebbles and Bam-Bam were famously toddlers in the old series, this spinoff jumped ahead, say, 14-15 years to show what they were like as teenagers.*
The show was basically a forrunner of the current Disney Channel programming strategy, which I recently discussed. Basically, it's about Pebbles and Bam-Bam's high school daze, as they also hang out with some assorted useless friends. (a male nerd, a female who aspires to be a psychic, and another female self-conscious about being overweight. believe me, that's the only development those characters ever got.) they got into all kinds of hijinks, like Pebbles discovering Bam-Bam is a beautiful singer, but only when he's in the shower, so she tries to arrange live performances for Bam-bam that he can perform while showering. Or the time when Pebbles, then Bam-bam, then the other 3 friends, then Fred and Wilma, then finally Betty all believe that Pebbles accidentally turned Barney into a frog while practicing witchliness. (Turns out Barney was just in the can or something. It was a big misunderstanding.) Many of the hijinks are caused because Pebbles gets a "hair brained scheme," and while Bam Bam objects, he still ends up helping. "Why do I always help you with these stupid plans!?" he laments. (Well, the sex, obviously.) So, in this way, Pebbles and Bam Bam's relationship mirrors the relationship of their fathers, Fred and Barney. Just with Sex. Okay, with Sexual tension. Alright, fine, "romantic" tension. But Pebble's schemes are usually more well meant than Fred's. Fred's schemes were usually just money-making plans. Pebbles is usually out to help someone. (although, on at least one occasion, she did have a straight-up money making scheme. It involved a sea monster. Go figure.)
Hmm. Where was I? Oh yeah. To sum up, CN sucks now, I can't even get Boomerang anymore, but Pebbles and Bam Bam is coming to DVD which helps a lot. TZ says it hits this march. cool. In the mean time, I gotta get The Batman Season 4 next week. So there.
*An interesting side note, even though the show was 15 years later, the adults, Fred, Wilma, Barney and Betty, who still made regular appearances as ancillary characters, did not age a single day since the old series. If they were early thirties before, they must be mid-to-late forties by now. Still, it's a cartoon, so we can take it in stride. By contrast, I could never understand "peanuts time" when it came to Batman. So, Batman was 30 When Dick Grayson, 12, came to live with him. Batman was still 30 when Dick was 19 and in college. Batman was still 30 when Dick was 23, graduating College, and leaving Gotham and his role as Robin Behind. Finally, Dick, 27, returns to Gotham as Nightwing and Batman is 35. A couple of years after that, the Justice League forms, and Batman, age 30, joins. Mahhuh? | | Monday, November 12th, 2007 | | 11:31 pm |
Write up on Disney Channel line up 11 PM-1 Am CST. ( Read more... ) | | Monday, October 15th, 2007 | | 11:34 pm |
WTF!? I think I'm gonna have an aneurysm. I mean, just how stupid can some people get? I was working at walmart, and an elderly gentlemen gives me a card pamphlet and mentions something about a Superhighway going all the way through Mexico, the US, and Canada, and the North American Union(?). I open the card. it features a flag that's a composite of the US, Mexico, and Canada flags and warns of the same North American Union and prints some immigration statistics to prove some sort point. (According to the card, it appears Illegal immigration didn't exist until the 1960's!) The whole thing was laughable and inane, and links to a website: http://www.jbs.org/nauGo. Laugh. And then be afraid. Not of the so called North American Union, but of really stupid people buying into this crap, and this John Birch Society that's organizing it. Also note that they're trying to get you to take action at every turn but being very vague about the specifics of their BS conspiracy theory. I mean, I hope the rank-and-file swing-voting American has enough common sense to see through this very inane scare attempt, but I have a bad feeling in the pit of my stomach that I haven't heard the last of this completely fictional North American Union and it will be some sort of hot-button issue next year. And for some more fun from stupid people, I'm linking to an article at Snopes, (A VERY good website for debunking BS you hear on the internet) discussing the Right Wing's fear of the "Amero," The fictional currency for the fiction "North American Union." http://www.snopes.com/politics/business/amero.asp | | Thursday, October 11th, 2007 | | 10:31 pm |
I'm suffering from Writer's Laziness.
I'm sure other people who have written know this one. I love my ideas, be they reviews or stories, when they're a big swirling mass of potential in my head. But to sit down and hammer them out? rough man.
Does anyone have any coping strategies for this? | | 10:14 pm |
Oh. My. God.
It has come to my attention that a video game version of the Classic Looney Tune "Duck Amuck" not only exists, but is shipping to stores as we speak on the Nintendo DS.
Now, you may be tempted to say "Meh" but hold on one second.
It's on the Nintendo DS, and that's what makes the critical difference.
For you see, the Nintendo DS has a touch screen, that basically allows you to draw on the game screen. You starting to see the potential here? the Duck Amuck cartoon was entirely based around an unseen animator tormenting Daffy by drawing or erasing things on or around him.
The DS game puts you in the role of the animator. Erase Daffy's beak and redraw it. turn his voice off. and torment him to your heart's content. Ah, the age we live in.
I rebought a DS a couple of weeks ago. I had one at the beginning, in 2004, back when they didn't know what to do with it. in the intervening years however, it seems they've gotten more creative. Sure, I bought a Zelda game which is totally awesome, but even more mind-shattering is another new game I got, called Drawn to Life, which basically let's you draw your own video game character and play the game with it. This has, literally, been a dream of mine since a kid. Put my own guy in the game. The game itself is engaging, but I spending most of my time redrawing and critiquing my character's look, to make it the best character possible. | | Thursday, September 27th, 2007 | | 8:10 pm |
I did a bad thing.
I started thinking about all the things I'm still bitter about with how my parents handled their divorce. I've been feeling shitty for two days now. | | Tuesday, September 11th, 2007 | | 3:53 pm |
Thanks Chris.
After shunning them for brick and mortar stores, I've been using Deep Discount last couple of weeks as per Chris's suggestion. Indeed, they have rock-bottom prices, free shipping, and the free shipping is surprisingly fast! on my 2 orders so far, the packages have been delivered within 4 days of the order, even though they estimate 5-10!
Chris, they are a great service! When do they do that coupon deal again? | | Wednesday, August 29th, 2007 | | 12:00 pm |
I just saw part of a tailspin episode.
"For Whom the Bell Klangs" In case you don't know, it's pretty much the best episode of any animated cartoon show of all time.
Anyone know if it's currently on DVD? | | Thursday, August 9th, 2007 | | 6:40 pm |
I think I'm losing my grip.
Today, I was sitting down, and wanted my phone, which was accross the room. So I held out my hand and said "accio!"
For a half second, I was surprised it didn't fly into my hand. But then, I was more surprised and disturbed I thought it WOULD.
Current Mood: unsettled |
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